May 31, 2024

How do you feel about possibility? Is it something that gets you excited, that makes life magical and full of wonder? Or do you think believing in too much possibility makes you foolish, naive, and childish? Maybe all of the above?

I really want to dive into our relationship with possibility for the month of June. Explore all the different parts of ourselves that come up when just considering acting on dreams we have, let alone actually acting on them.

I personally would like to be much more consistently open to possibilities. I've become much more open over the past few years, but still have my struggles with it. I don't want to delude myself with visions of grandeur or waste my life pursuing impossible dreams.

And yet...

Part of me is pulled toward possibility, toward the idea that magical, beautiful things are out there just waiting for me to believe hard enough. Like believing in fairies - I do believe, I do believe and clapping my heart out. Maybe there's a reason stories like that are so popular and persist through the years.

Honestly, I've often thought people who were too idealistic, too optimistic were delusional, were living in Lala Land. I'd think to myself, what's wrong with them? Don't they know the world is full of danger, destruction, and despair? They should just face up to the harsh realities of the world. Be realistic. Come sink down into the pit of despair with me.

Ultimately I think the judgment I had of them was a reflection of my judgment of that idealistic part of myself. The innocent part that believed whole-heartedly that amazing things were possible. That life is a gift, not a burden. And how many times did I shut that part down? Trying to be a grown up; to be responsible, realistic, and rational.

The trouble with giving my serious, practical side all the airtime in my head was that it made life feel boring and burdensome. I'd lost the joy and fun of life. Not completely, but a whole lot of it.

So the idea for June, for those of you who want to come exploring with me, is to take a trip to Lala Land. To explore our current relationship to possibility and to attempt to open the door to more. To allow ourselves to imagine amazing, miraculous things happening in our lives. Or at least really good things. To give ourselves permission to be as outlandish as we can muster, at least in our imaginations. To allow ourselves to feel foolish, childish, and naive. At least here in this space with each other. And hopefully share some laughs along the way. 

And if it doesn't work out, we let it all go and try something else in July :)